SixOneOne swift move and It would be over. The pain would retreat back inside her and leave her alone till they found their way out again.TwoTwo scars on her ankles where she has previously hurt herself in order to quell the pain. To make it all disappear.ThreeThree people who loved her fought to keep her from doing it again. But their voices were far gone and words on a computer had little effect on her thoughts.FourFour times she had fought and won since the previous time. Her spirit breaking each time the need subsided back into her mind.FiveFive weeks since she last gave in. A blow to her mentally and physically. But a feeling of pain and pleasure.SixSix words shot through her mind as she puts the razor down. I will never ever give in.
Rollar CoasterUp down, Up down.It's a rollar coaster That never ends.No end of the track To let me breath.Turning and flipping All around.No handle bars No buckle.Just my body And the cart.On this rollar coaster That never ends.
The One Thing On My MindOnly three months that we have known each other and I couldn't be happier. Slow but steady. And going places. I've never felt this way and my feelings grow everyday. You are so amazing and so sweet. Just being around you makes me happy. I can wait to hold your hand or kiss your lips. As long as I have you I am OK. And I will always be OK even if we just remain friends. I confide in you like no other person. I tell you everything first. I love talking to you from morning till night.
April 27thMonday. It was like a dream when it all happened. A simple phone call in the middle of the day. It was expected but at the same time it wasnt. I heard those words that I had waited a month to hear and I smiled out of sadness, my heart raced, and all I wanted to do was run clear cross campus to the only person who was there for me. But I couldnt. I just sat there unable to move. I waited for my dad to come get me; to take me home so I could get ready for the following day. I sat in my room and cried. I talked to my friends but as much as I wish it had helped, it did nothing but to stop me from going insane.Tuesday. It was like a dream when I woke up. I put on my dress and walked out the door into the rain like a machine on autopilot. The car ride was hell. My ipod kept me sane but couldnt stop the tears. Every song seemed to remind me of everything. Even the upbeat ones. We arrived early. It was so hard to think about it. Sitting there watching people walking in to se
Rainy ThoughtsThe rain felt amazing. My tears were unseen. My body was numb. My mind was empty. Sitting there was the most amazing feeling in the world. Nothing went through my head. All I knew at that point was the lightning in the sky, the wind against the trees and my wet back, and the slow breaking of the clouds above. Everything went away and there were no worries running through my head. But the second I stood up, it all came rushing back.