Because of You...Because of you, I will never let another person touch my heart again.Because of you, I will not let myself be open to pain and disappointment.Because of you, no one will ever hurt me again.Because of you, part of me hates.Because of you, part of my heart has turned cold and dark.
He LingersLilly lay in bed and buried her face into her pillow. His intoxicating scent lingered from the night before. It was in her pillow, blanket and even the sheets below her. She smiled at the thought of him first lying down in that very spot only twenty-four hours ago. Her lips whispered his name over and over as a single tear of loneliness threatened to fall down her cheek. Lilly held back hard and sighed lightly. She switched from one object to the other, not wanting to take his scent away from either one too quickly. She closed her eyes and all she saw was him and his warm smile that could only make her smile back. He was perfect to her. He was a dork but she loved that fact about him. There was nothing she could do but smile upon the hours that they had together in each others arms. Her lips curled in a sad smile because she knew it would be some time before she saw him again. It was hard every time she had to say good bye and each time she did, it only got harder and
SixOneOne swift move and It would be over. The pain would retreat back inside her and leave her alone till they found their way out again.TwoTwo scars on her ankles where she has previously hurt herself in order to quell the pain. To make it all disappear.ThreeThree people who loved her fought to keep her from doing it again. But their voices were far gone and words on a computer had little effect on her thoughts.FourFour times she had fought and won since the previous time. Her spirit breaking each time the need subsided back into her mind.FiveFive weeks since she last gave in. A blow to her mentally and physically. But a feeling of pain and pleasure.SixSix words shot through her mind as she puts the razor down. I will never ever give in.